All that I know is I’m breathing now

4 Aug

The good news or the bad news? Is there a difference? In the end I’ve still got this awful disease. It will always be the enemy I keep closest and care for like it’s best friend, because I have to, because it’s a part of me.

I had my quarterly endocrinologist appointment today. The news was so-so. I’ve gained weight, even though I’ve been working hard to exercise 5 days a week. My A1c went up to 7.2. Not bad, but not my best. And the kicker…

My yearly urinalysis showed slightly elevated levels on the albumin/creatinine ratio test.

The plan is to go in for another urine test tomorrow, the results I got today were about a week old. It could have been a fluke, according to my doctor. Only tomorrow will tell. I hope that’s all it is. If it’s not, the next step is blood pressure medication. I have no problem adding another pill to my regimen, it’s just the reason for it is so upsetting. This is basically early stage kidney disease we are talking about (if we are even talking about it)…

I’m 19.

I’m a month shy of 15 years living relatively well with Type 1 Diabetes and also a month from my 20th birthday.

I don’t want this. Complications never really seem real, until you hear something like this. I’ve always been most worried about my vision, which is perfectly fine. Kidneys were an after thought and now here they are, in my face and I don’t know how to react. I thought I’d have more time to be complication free.

Maybe I do.

I’m crossing my fingers…I’m counting on a fluke.


Keep Breathing – Ingrid Michaelson 


4 Responses to “All that I know is I’m breathing now”

  1. Joanne Peet August 4, 2011 at 7:20 pm #

    Well… I’m T2 but I had the same worry about the kidney numbers. They are fine now. I was told by 2 different doctors that I must have had an infection which caused the problem. Hope yours is just a fluke. Best of luck! Joanne

  2. colleen August 4, 2011 at 7:23 pm #

    Take a deep breath – take several. Flukes are good.
    Fingers crossed and you know, I’ll even say a prayer for you.
    Hugs for my young friend…

  3. Jillian August 4, 2011 at 7:43 pm #

    Thanks for your support 🙂 I’ll be sure to update as soon as I know something.


  1. Think Good Thoughts. « All Ways Jillian - August 25, 2011

    […] things got hectic around these parts. Just wanted to let you know it was a fluke. Probably had something to do with exercising in the days prior to the test. So party […]

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